1 and a half months in

Hi all this is my first post here so I'm really sorry if I don't get all the rules right.

So in October my wife told me she was done and wanted out. I was honestly blind sided. I went to therapy and was working on myself while trying to fix things with someone who didn't seem to interested.

In late November I discovered a very graphic snapchat chain between my wife and a guy she met through mutual friends. This guy lives in another state, she is planning on going there in a few months for a festival and one of the lines was I hope I can sneak away for a night.

Discovering these messages absolutely shattered me. I wasn't able to cope at all, was even borderline suicidal.

My wife has gone from not speaking to me at all in October to being friendly even joking with me. I'm still not sleeping in the bed with her, as me sleeping in the bed makes her uncomfortable.

I know her and this guy are still snapchating each other. As I've seen the notifications. I've asked who it is and I've been told a girl from work. She has no idea that I know what sje has been sending him.

I'm honestly trying to ignore the fact that I know, while I try and work on our marriage problems but it is slowly wearing on me. I have good days and not good days.

Just thank you for getting this far