i got top surgery and body masc lipo!

my surgery was 5 hours long and apparently i pissed myself during it. worse i had to be naked for it. my bottom dysphoria was at all all time high in fact of the first things i said coming out of anesthesia was being sad they saw me as a girl even though thats what i just think because i never wanted anyone to see that. its hard i can barely move my leg is leaking fluid from the lipo i have greasy hair and face already but ive never felt happier at the same time. my surgeon said it went rlly successfully and im gonna be happy with the results. i feel so complicated ive been sleeping mostly. i had mostly great nurses and some shitty ones that misgendered me. i get my top bandages off in a week basically can’t shower rn and honestly other then my face and hair i don’t want to bc im in sm pain and lots of meds rn. this has been a ride and its basically just the start still have a whole month of healing. i just wanted to share my slightly tmi experience 😭