Advice, please.

I’m going though complete hell right now. I’m 17(nonbinary, female presenting around my family for safety. They’re homophobic.) I cannot move out yet, I’m still in school, I have not been allowed to get any jobs (summer or during the school year), so I have not been savings. My parents are divorced, but my mom always threatens to take my dad back to court if I try and live with him, even though he lives a town away and I feel like it should be my decision.

I get into a lot of fights with my mom. Usually it’s about my brothers. They don’t treat me well, they make fun of everything they can about me. My weight, how I look, what I wear, what I eat, who I’m friends with, ect. I try and go to my mom to talk to them, because most recently my younger brother (14m) had been getting more physical. He shoves me and hits stuff out of my hands and stuff. And last Thursday he tried to push me down the stairs (I think) I caught the flu that day and felt like shit. I had to sit downstairs and watch my dog until my mom got home. (Even tho my moms boyfriend was home just sitting in their room 🙄) Shawn was upstairs already, and when he heard me going upstairs he came out of his room and tried to shove me down the stairs. I barely got around the corner wall, and I honestly was scared for myself. I am safe now, though.

Today, me and my mom fought. It was because I’d missed the bus after not going to school for 3 days. (Because I had the flu) I missed the bus because I needed a pair of socks from her but she was in the shower, so I was waiting in the kitchen. Brother comes in and starts making fun of me. I tried to go to my mom’s boyfriend, he was useless. So I shouted to my mom that I was waiting upstairs for brother to leave. During my waiting, brother came upstairs and went in his room, letting 2 of our cats in. He let one cat out, d(not real cats name), and left p(not real name again) in his room. I tried to tell him to let p out and he screamed at me. My mom was standing at the bottom of the stairs and let him do it without a word to him.

After brother left for the bus, my mom was yelling at me from down the stairs that I always do this, I’m gonna fail school, yelling that I need to take my meds. (she loves to act like I act up bc I forgot to take my meds. They’re just for depression and anxiety, not something that affects my personality extremely) This isn’t new, though, our fights always consist of her screaming at me, and if I say anything back I’m wrong. And then after we fight, she goes and tells her boyfriend and he always texts me all angry and ranting about my behavior. And my mom and her boyfriend always just ignore what Shawn does, never do a thing about it.

Today, though, she said she’s gonna take me phone and make me use a prepaid flip phone. (Yes, I was upset. I’m a teenager and that’s my only connection to my friends.) and she’s threatening to take my door off the hinges once again (she’s taken my doorknob before. I have 2 brothers, they constantly go in my room if I don’t lock it. They also love throwing trash/dishes in there)

Anyways, I don’t know what to do anymore. Hence why I’m going to a bunch of internet strangers for advice.

TLDR: this whole post is a big mess. I ask about family advice cus I feel like my mom doesn’t listen to me.