Relapse + Optimism for the future

Today I relapsed. The urges were overwhelming and constant. One thing led to another, and boom. Relapse. Even though I just lost a 14 day streak, I am optimistic for the future. I do feel bummed though, because I was trying so hard to not relapse. I feel like this time, I can get to 30 days and beyond. This community has helped me beyond words. As I look back at the 14 days I had without PMO, I would be reminded of feelings of hope, happiness, and good memories. Those two weeks gave me a glimpse of how life will be without PMO. There is so much more to life than porn. The two weeks I had, I felt confident in myself and I was wanting to better myself each day. Right now, I have gotten rid of the ways that could cause me to relapse again. One thing I would recommend to those struggling, the NF emergency tab is such a great help when you are close to relapsing. I have used it for that very purpose. Except today. I was clouded with sexual thoughts that made me forget about that tab. Hours before relapsing, I clicked on it and it brought me this quote, "Your future self is watching you through memory, while your past self is hoping for your success." I love that quote. When I read that, I was hit with the realization that it is pointless to watch porn and that I need to stop. I will break this addiction and so can you. Now, my user flair does say 1 day, even though I relapsed today. I made the date since relapse yesterday because Mondays are a good goal for me. They signify one week and I am going to stick with that. This journey that I have decided to put myself through will be hard. I know that. This community will help it to not be too bad. If you are struggling, reach out. To either me or the rest of the SubReddit. Get help. You can't go through this journey alone. I love you guys and I hope that you will beat this addiction. Stay strong guys and don't give in to the urges.