In a lot of pain

In a lot of pain right now and finding it hard to type so sorry for any errors

I really just want to rant. It's in the middle of the night my whole body hurts particularly my joints knees and elbows my left elbow hurts most. I can't stop screaming and crying currently at home and feel so guilty because it's a Monday morning my family needs to go to work and they need their sleep. They're trying to but I can imagine how hard it is when I'm screaming like a literal child. I'd say my pain is a solid 8 right now and I would rather just die than to keep experiencing it, it goes up to a 10 and comes down to a 8 and it just continues my throat is so dry I need water I can not move I really really want to sleep but I've already taken sleeping pills and woke up 2 hours ago. I can't believe this is happening right now I have a theatre thing on Saturday I can't not afford to miss practice but at the same time I really want to go to the hospital but it seems non are a option right now, my parents can not afford it right now so I really just need to suck it up but it feels like I'm dying I know I'm not but it hurts so much. I just want to sleep I really just want to sleep but I can't so I'm just here miserably in pain. Tbh I'd be really grateful if someone could just knock me out I'm so tired maybe I'm being overly dramatic I don't know I'm having to cover my mouth not to shout and that's a challenge because everything hurts and moving hurts and not moving hurts but I can't help but move cus it hurts.

Anyways, how's everyone doing. Hope you're having a better night than me I'm trying to distract myself but it's not really working. I really really need water too :(