my moisture barrier is gone with no sign of returning.

applying cream every 15 minutes just to be able to move. flaking all over everything. waking up in mountains in skin filth. peeling my skin off just to see some”healthy skin” underneath and feel the smallest glimmer of hope that gets destroyed within seconds after realizing what i’ve done. thicker, drier skin growing back. no such thing as fresh, healthy skin.

recently my derm bullied me into thinking i did this to myself with “my allergic reaction to my creams” which is not true at all as i test all my creams extensively before using them. but she won’t give me any solution to the dryness besides “don’t take hot showers” (I DON’T.) And use oil. that’s all they have to offer. they don’t have solutions. i’m tired of being reliant on moisturizing like an addict. but I suppose there’s no other way to heal my mutated skin barrier