Hesitant to take Weight Loss Meds

I (F28) have my annual physical next week and I am really dreading it. I’m about 224lbs at 5’ 7” and actively working to lose weight on my own. I’ve had varied success with programs like Noom and Weight Watchers, but it’s never sustainable for me. I take a fast-paced dance class or all-levels yoga class during the week, and then I take a pole dance class on weekends. I take walks intermittently but I have a stagnant desk job.

At my last appointment, my doctor prescribed me an injectable weight loss medication similar to Ozempic. After he explained the side effects and potential risks, it honestly put the fear of god into me. I never filled the prescription because I was so scared. And now I’m afraid that he’ll see I haven’t met my goal and try to prescribe this medication to me again.

My family has a history of high blood pressure, and my mom is pre-diabetic, so I know what’s at risk with me being this weight. My bloodwork from my last two visits have been normal.

I know I shouldn’t, but I feel a weird sense of shame at the prospect taking a weight loss medication. Like I’m a failure because I couldn’t lose weight “naturally.” But I don’t feel like anyone else who does take weight loss medication is a failure, so why am I projecting those negative thoughts onto myself? Should I bite the bullet and give the meds a try?

I’m just so sick of dreading the doctor.