Following manic episode, how apologetic should I be?
I'm BP1 and my now ex kept me up before a stressful project -- by repeatedly interrupting me and breaking my concentration on a task I needed 1-1.5 hours of quiet for. She knew I was BP, knew I needed rest, and I explained that need for quiet to do work repeatedly. It was already a stressful project and the repeated back and forth of trying to get quiet in a small studio was torture, and increasingly stressful as the night went on. I still don't have an explanation for why she did it.
I got 45 minutes of rest that night between interruptions and the distress of not knowing why she was doing what she did, which confused me and made my heart race.
By the next morning, I was already showing signs of mania. Later, I was ready to forgive her because I was able to power through the shoot and it went well, but the next morning she did a similar thing (interrupting me from sending an important work email and insisting that I not send it), and it triggered me. I didn't know what was going on. This is where things get to be more the product of a bipolar mind: I called the cops on her to get what seemed to me her bizarre behavior on record. Then I broke up with her and proceeded to kick her out of our shared apartment.
While she was staying with her sister, she was asked by my doctor to give me a week so I could be treated and come back to earth. I was at least in a lot of distress and probably hypomanic. But the moment I broke up with her I was to get out of the apt immediately even though I had no place to go. Despite what my doctor said, she was there again with her mom within the next 24 hours. Later, she shuts off the internet and the amenities (where I worked my job) to get me out of there. Sometime later, she shows up with her mom and locks me out of the apartment.
A part of me feels my ex triggered the manic episode by not listening to my pleas for quiet to work. It's also hard not to feel like all she wanted to do was get me out of the apartment and once I broke up with her didn't care I needed help. I wasn't given a chance to be treated because there was so much chaos. I'm sorry I went manic, I really am, but am I wrong to not be all that apologetic given how should behaved and contributed to the situation? How apologetic should I be?