Day 1 again

Hi. At the beginning of the year I attempted to quit. For the most part, January was decent, only drank 10 days, but I had a 3 day bender this week and I really want to quit for good.

I was triggered a bit emotionally in January which led me to slipping up occasionally, but I got anxious again today and my last anxious moment due to alcohol was a month ago. I never want to feel like this again.

Currently at 22 hours since my last drink, and this day has been rough. Couldn't really eat anything, terrible indigestion, trying to hydrate, waves of anxiety, and of course lots of random pains everywhere that are feeding my anxiety, and of course i'm googling all the sensations and thinking of the worst. My chest made a couple of really weird sensations, and 1 of them really scared me, and I even had a "brain zap". But thankfully I didn't have a full on panic attack like I did a month ago.

Anyways, thanks for reading, I just needed to get that off my chest. Hopefully I make it through the week in one piece.