I suck at EVERY game

Before you ask. No, I am no having fun while being terrible. I can pour my life out into games spending years but I'm still terrible. I just don't understand why. I have never been even half decent in any game whatsoever. How am I supposed to cope with this as I love gaming but I feel like that passion is dying because of this. I am always the bad friend. The one no one wants to play with because they suck. I have to find new or dying games that my friends like or are bad at just like me just to learn that they got better but I still suck.

I cant pick a game to play because I spend years on games but I'm still just terrible. When I'm bad, I just end up finding a new game to be bad at. Years, I spent on some games. Years. Just to quit because I'm absolutely terrible and no one can even stand being around my skill level. I don't take fun in constantly being bad and just want to be like a normal person.