My brother committed suicide, I’m reeling from the loss, and I need to feel something. Please help me create a playlist.

My 21 year old baby brother took his life two days ago. I’ve never been good at allowing myself to feel. I need suggestions of what to listen to. I’m talking songs like what the fuck, why did you do this, how could you leave us type songs. Music was a huge part of his life and while I’d honestly prefer to listen to his favorite music, we haven’t gotten his phone back from the police yet so I’m shit out of luck in that aspect. I just really need to allow myself to feel something and music is the only way I know how to find that type of release. Please give me song suggestions or a playlist I could listen to.

Thank you

edit: wow. thank you all for much for the outpouring support and suggestions. much love to you all. 🖤

edit 2: i’m genuinely shocked that this is still blowing up. i really appreciate each and every one of you. thank you from the bottom of my heart.