Problems with health

Hello :) I am 24 years old medical strudent who has to be financially supported by narcissistic parents in order to survive school. I failed at school but didn't give up and do my best to continue passing my exams although a bit slow. Nothing surprising that my father constantly (few times a day) critisizes me and mocks me in the most disgusting and unhinged way. It's not criticism but an extreme emotional abuse that makes me hyper angry that I feel explosive anger with serious physical symptoms like tachycardia, tingling and pain in the brain, my body gets hot, can't concentrate and so on. My body needs a montt to recover from these symptoms. The problem is this happens quite often and I am concerned about my health. This release of cortisols isn't healthy. But on the other side, I don't want to end up flipping burgers or working as something else. I really sacrificed my health for this course. I can't attent labs and study and work at the same time. I literally gave up everything in order to study. I have anxiety disorder from years of abuse but this extreme anger scares me more. I believe that the anger is caused by years of accumulated trauma. I don't know if I can survive this anymore😭