Kratom Induced Anxiety Attacks

I was wondering if anyone else has experienced this. It's happened to me twice now, including currently. I am in the process of tapering but after having a night of anxiousness and stress I damn near had a panic attack. Now my body correlates the feeling of kratom coming on as the beginning of an anxiety attack. I'm trying to keep it subdued but it's becoming difficult. Everyday is a struggle, hour by hour, and as soon as it's time to dose it's the same thing. I wish I could cold turkey but I don't get to because of work and a family of 5 to take care of. I've been good on my taper so far although I'm in the beginning but I've never been more excited and motivated to be done then I am now. It's my first taper to get completely off and I've went all out with it. Anyways, the kratom induced anxiety from each dose is making me want to stop now but I can't and I wanted to hear of anyone else had ever experienced this. It's tough because if I take it I'm screwed, if I don't take it I'm screwed....