4 weeks & still off some

Tonight will be 4 weeks. Whenever I’ve quit I think out of self preservation & in the spirit of one day at a time I assume I won’t have long last symptoms. That’s definitely not the case though. It helps for me to not think too far ahead though so being overly optimistic doesn’t seem to hurt in the initial days.

Anyhow 4 weeks have passed & I’m grateful to be here. I had relapsed right around here not too long ago on a previous quit. I don’t have a desire to waste more time but my lack of motivation is what is most challenging. I still feel like my ability to grind is seriously impaired. There is a disconnect between what I’d like to do to be successful & my ability to execute.

I keep reminding myself… take it one day at a time. Keep plugging away & count progress not perfection. I’ll be bummed if I don’t see progress at 3 months & 6 months but I know I will.

For any long time users this can be challenging in a different way than the acutes. It takes consistent will power & effort to continue to plod along versus massive action & enduring the initial storm of acutes.

So grateful to be one step closer to the life I want & freedom from addiction. Just keep pushing!