I had a realization today: I learned not to care about myself or my emotional needs because they were never honored as a kid.

There wasn't really any way to escape being hurt as a kid, so I dissociated and gave up all expectation that people would be kind to me. Doing this was a good coping mechanism in the moment because it allowed me to not feel pain (and I guess have worse emotional reactions, etc.). But I also just got in the habit of ignoring pain and my emotional needs as opposed to feeling, processing, and trying to get my needs met.

Did anyone else experience this?