Shifting To Escape Abuse/Poverty (Is it justified lmao)

I’m really sorry if this isn’t allowed but I have no other options. So some background, I lost my job back in June of 2024. Immediately after (I wasn’t even given a week) before my entire family turned on me. I was also denied unemployment, the EEOC told me I didn’t have a case despite harassment and physical threats from my boss, and despite busting my ass day and night, I STILL haven’t been able to find anything. I couldn’t save money before because everything was siphoned by my family. I’m also in college studying medical billing/coding with business mathematics. Trying to find a job through all possible avenues, even temp agencies.

This being said, is it ever justified to shift to escape this? While I’m trying my hardest to claw my way out of this hole, I also wanna shift ASAP in case things go wrong (my luck has been shit every since I got fired I’ve even had Covid 3 more times combined with stomach issues and I cannot live like this. Crisis centers don’t believe me and I’m trying so hard to get a job and escape and I can’t get donations or anything)

I’ve been practicing with the gateway tapes on the nights everyone goes to work - other than this I’m forced to stay awake all night because apparently I’m evil and lazy for wanting to sleep before 2-3am. My ONLY options are living with other abusers. And the friends I do have don’t want me living with them even if I find a job.

Lucifer and my spirit guides and my comfort characters have been getting me through this but I’m struggling to justify shifting despite working hard in school and everywhere else to get out of this situation. Can anyone else relate lol

On the bright side a job may be in my corner soon, that’ll lessen some of the abuse I’m suffering. I believe I can shift despite everything but still I really really have no where else to reach out. I’m not asking for money or donations or anything else. I’ve been trying to shift since 2021 (originally 2011 but I locked in back in 2023 with very minimal success)

I’m sorry if this is triggering. I know for a fact everything would be okay if I could reach the void state and just at least get myself a job. I’m trying so hard. I’m sorry lol