(Ftm) Who else has always seen themselves as a boy?

I dislike when other trans people say shit like "when I used to be a girl" or "when I used to be a boy" when I've literally never felt like that. I genuinely have always viewed myself as a boy despite how I was forced to present as a literal child. I showed many signs of being transsexual as a child. I came out to my mother at 11 and at first she didn't accept me, so I had to go back into the closet. I thought that maybe my mother would be okay with it if I was nonbinary, so I came out as that instead when I was 13 (mind you, this was 2020 and almost EVERYONE wanted to be nonbinary as it was seen as 'cool' and 'trendy'). At 14 I felt safe enough to come out as male again and she understood that this was who I was and nothing was going to change that. Identity can be confusing, sure, but my brain structure didn't just magically change as soon as I came out. I've always been this way, a neurological male even if I was forced to present as female.